Unsure Emotion

Something unsure emotion is growing in my heart.

That isn't a happy emotion, it called jealous and lonely.

I arrange all the things but end up with unhappy.

I do not know what they think.

Is they notice my feeling? I don't know.

The more ppl the more uncertainty.

It is applied to a meeting too..

I have a large wish..I wish to make all happy..

Or do not want any1 unhappy..

At the end, every1 is happy but i didn't..

But is they really happy? Still an unsure things..

She is my best friend,

Why am i angry to her?

I know she did nothing wrong..

She just care people that she know..

That is an accident I made 2 stranger to meet.

When I thking how to settle it,

She was telling me her story,

didn't care about another gal..

I know it not her fault..

Bcuz she want make me happy..

want make the meeting wont end up wif quiet..

But i cant just left her there..

She oso my frens..

Really do know what to do..

I make a wrong decision to meet up..

a Scary China Gal

My hostel was come in 2 china gals..

1 of the them was lost RM1000 Ytd..

We suspended it is stolen by another china gal

which have record of stealing people's stuffs..

This gal was come in 2 months ago..

She was living with my house mate's frens..

They told us that the china gal is a thief..

I was not blif it..

until there is a case happen in my house..

The gal very like pretty..

She always dress up herself..

Her bf also always come find her..

But i feel that she is using her bf..

Cuz everytime i saw her bf help her repair lappy..

or buy food for him..or accompany her to shopping..

But this doesn't matter..

when we told her our housemate losing money..

she still said like she is grievance..

OMG..she can use the money to buy the mask..

and put on the table in room..

the mask super expensive..

not a student can buy 1..

but she still can say like she vry grieve..

A scary china gal..

难过

难过的日子也是一天

可是难过的日子让人心痛

它的价值超过了快乐

快乐让人开怀

难过让人心痛

痛到了心

让人感受深刻.

Daily life-22st Oct 2009, Thurs

A lonely day..

Wanna find some1 to talk..

so i called a few of my frens..

plan something just hope to meet them..

but there isn't smooth as I think..

I spoil all cuz of scare they hate me..

I feel that my frens dun like to talk wif me..

why?

Izit I did anything wrong bt i din realize?

or bcuz of my poor communication skill?

really feel sad..

I look them important than anythg

except of my family..

izit bcuz of me too sensitive?

why i will think they hate me?

dun like me?

There is a few more week i stay at KL..

I goin back to my hometown to have training..

Why cant i have some memory wif them?

I dunno..Sometime Expect make ppl sad..

Wan to gv up..

But cant gv up..

They are my frens..

Let's cool down myself for a day..

Daily life-14th Sept 2009, Wed

A tough day for me..

Super tired but cant give myself a good rest..

Head starting give me pressure once i touch my pillow..

Finished a presentation,

there are 2 more assignment to go..

When only can i finish all my works..

Headache again..lazy write..

Daily life-15th Sept 2009, Tues

I'm back to here after a few days break..

Today was having a impromptu speech..

I no enuf prepared bcuz I end it b4 the time..

But there is still an improvement for me

bcuz I didn't nervous today..Is a nice try ^^

Nxt is to prepare the public speaking le..

Is a big project bcuz nid to interview a professional..

I was thking to submit it today as I done the interview

but the lecturer said the interviewee must be a professional..

So I'm thking whoelse can be interview..

Fri will follow fren to go Taiping for a camp..

Then stay for 1 night..

Sunday back to Hometown enjoy my holiday ^^

These few days less contact some people..

I felt very guilty to them..

I really had no time n mood to contact them..

But now is settle a big part of my works..

Is a time to contact them now..

Daily life-4th Sept 2009, Fri

Wake up 6am and go to PWTC for work.

Today done a free wage worker for XXX company..

Get nth sales..Sad...And the people vry less also..

Not sure is cuz of H1N1 or not..

Abit sick..2mr wan go work?? worrying..

I hav no confident to our product..

transportation is trouble..nid change LRT..

i taken 1 hour to go PWTC..

Stay under aircorn for 12hours is another trouble for me..

I'm that kind cant stay in aircorn too long..

Another worry about my web authoring coursework..

lecturer haven reply my email yet..

worry..worry..

Daily life-2nd Aug 2009, Wed

My schedule has been throw into confusion..

I was planned to do my homework at 6am..

bt i wake up at 12pm >.<

The homework nid to submit ltr..

I have no choice and skipped another class

to finish my homework..

Finally done it now..But it just a part of homework..

I still hav many homework nid to do..arghh...

Today is maple new patch..

New world is lauching..Cant wait to play..

bt do I hav time to play?

Ytd ItzMe crazy planning bt the conclusion is..?

blur le..bcz...I still got..

1 impromptu speech, 1 public speaking, 2 reports to go..

CRAZY uni life...

But i hav released abit bcz viper said

can help me get the "rich dad, poor dad" book..

Thanksss alot~~x3

This fri hav part time job..hope everythg will run well..

Mum warning me must wear mask at there..

if not dun allow me to go..

haha...knw she care me much :P

Always disapointed she..haizz...

tis time must guai guai le..

Nini's photo-Friends' Birthday

Ah fatt's birthday

Chet Ming's birthday

BC n YP s' birthday

Nini's Photo - With mama (CC)

Taking in MPS 2008/2009..(With my CC's mama)

Daily life-1st Sept 2009, Tues

Today is an unlucky day..

When drawing for the impromptu speech topic..

I get an unready topic..

So i requested for change..

But still get another unready topic..

Total oni 5 topics n i ready for 3 topics..

Draw 2 times also get the unready 1..

Super suay ah..haizz...

B4 raya mean week 10 hav to summit the tape of interview

, another impromptu speech n got assessment of thai song..

Now alrdy week 8..haven ready both these..

Afraiddd.....

Ltr 6pm hav another class..

This class requires us to read "rich dad, poor dad"..

n submit a report about the book..

Dateline is end of Sept..

So far, i dun hav the book yet..

Today's Achieve:

Search info for nxt impromptu speech

Listen thai song

Daily life-31st Aug 2009, Mon

Today wake up as usual..1pm..

(usual as weekend la haha)

When wake up i sit infront of comp..

wah...so many msn msg..all greet me morning de..

cuz i din off laptop let it dl movie...

Lazy as usual..read novels..msn..

ytd achieve din finish oso..

haven help dear dear's char to lv30..

n my impromptu speech haven prepare oso..

haizzz....why i so lazy...

Whole day wait my ben ben mei's blog..

untill now oni get it f3..

she ask from me a pic...say wan put in fren de..

bt i go see her blog...oni my pic..others dun hav pic de..

ben ben mei bluff me F5...

Today whole day no login maple..

break record le ^^

My fren, hui just back hostel..alone..

Vry lonely hor? I experienced..

nvm got ben ben mei n me here ^^