Tear drop again

Again and again,

I really dunno how to survive in this place..

Whatever I do are wrong..

I wish to escape from this place..from the person..

I tried to calm down myself,

but it is failed at the end..

Again I asked myself,

why would I born in this world?

to taste all the suffer?

Anyway, I know what I thought now will been forgot by me soon

just by now, I'm suffer for the thought..

Moody (End of April)

Moody Day again,

Why? Why will I fall into the dark hole..

I blame every1 even though I know they are not doing anything wrong..

They are just acting like usual..

It's not like me..I'm scare to myself..

Or maybe this just is me?

I hope it is not..

I cannot accept any comment by now..

It will make me breakdown..

Just a normal react, I can think as no respectful..

What the hell I'm thinking?

I really scare..I have the feeling of breakdown soon..

I need people to talk to..

but I cannot accept people comment..

I dun want people treat me gingerly..

but I will think they not care me if just react like normal..

Tear is drop again..for my fault..

What can I do now..

What i want actually?

I making every1 around me unhappy..

God..I wish to sleep forever..

So I wont get hurt and hurt any1..

Well, I believe I can stand up soon..

Just give me time..

I think I'm not so bad, right?

At least, I do know my fault..

I know I'm a slow pork..

so give me time to settle my stuffs..

I'm a fast learner..

but I'm not a good executor as I do not have a good memory

Cheer it up ^^ 

New Template

Changed blog template,

The template let me think of "wow, so pink"

Anyway, it look cute and full with love.

I dunno whether my character is suit with the feeling or not,

but hope to give reader a feeling of happy.

While, my youngest mei comment to me..

it look like Indian style  >< wt...

but i dun bother her haha..still keep it..

Hope to see more beautiful template.

Instability of emotion

Instability of emotion again.

Lose my temper cuz of a trifle.

Was tot to find some1 to talk however I dunno find who.

Find Hee? how to tell as I knw he is in a happy mood?

Find Qing? she driving..dun wan disturb her..

Find Dear? she goin to have date wif qing..
dun thk she has time to listen me..

Tear was out..cuz i know myself was wrong..

but i have no way to abreact..

Nite of tear

My heart is pain.

Go inside wan to see you

but I'm regret to go inside.

If I know it early, I'll not go in..

I wish to throw all the things away..

The way U want to protect me is disobey my wish

My way to treat fren is blif and frenly..

When I follow u, I feel myself is so selfish..

Selfishness ppl is most hate by me..

but now it turns to me..

I dunno how to do..

I dunno who m I if the trust is gone..

I know u'r not happy too..

but I really cannot agree what u do..

I know not every1 can be trust

but I want to trust them 

Cuz of so little thing and lost a fren..

I cannot do it..

朋友的部落格

看了朋友的部落格

明白了他的想法却给不了意见

因为我也是深陷其中的一员

网上游戏很容易上瘾

因为我们是跟人玩游戏

而不是跟电脑玩

不管怎样我衷心的

希望他能做一个不让自己后悔的决定

加油!加油!

27th MC day

Ytd was not go to work bcz mirgraine

Wake at 11am but didn't receive any msg >_<

Anyway, I still sms him 1st..as I promised b4..

Whoever woke at 1st will sms another 1..

So far, he replied me vry fast..

give me the feeling that he still care about me..

so I nvr ask him about my doubt..

Qing feel not well too

Worry about her bcuz she already not well for 5 days.

She was went to see doc for twice

bcuz the 1st doc do not want to give her MC.

Sucker Doc lols..

But I still worry about her bcuz she still haven recover.

I was received a concern sms from a fren.Thanks you.

Always at the right time send me a regard. haha.

Abit sorry to Hee Laogong bcuz make him worry so much..

Mayb cuz he 1st time know I low blood pressure.

Easily get dizzy and mirgraine.

He make me feel warm altot cannot meet him.

<3 Hee Laogong

Gurney with Hee Laogong and Chin Jie Jie

(Taken by Chin Jie Jie)
Today is a great outting with Hee Laogong and Chin Jie Jie.

We watched "Ice Kacang Puppy Love" on the spot we reached Gurney.

Nice timing LOL..

Hee Laogong was crazy and suggested to watch 3 movies F3

Sot sot le him..

After watched movie, we went to find eat..

Too many choices till we dunno want to eat what..

And finally we chose a restaurant..

Forgot to see what the restaurant name ><''

Ordered a bbq half chicken, mushroom saurce speggeti and sandwich..

The sandwich actually not our choices..

Is the waiter suggested~~ 

Anyway, it is a very full meal..

Chin jie jie so like to eat vegetable oh..haha..healthy~

The drinks also bring a moment of hapiness to us too..

Hee Laogong 1 is sweet, then mine is sour, chin jie jie de is bitter..

If drink it according..

After the meal, the time is point to 4pm..

We went around the building and they help me chose hair pin..

So beautiful..it's butterfly :D

5pm, we on our way back le..

Hee Laogong fetch us back..We sit ferry? or Car sit ferry?haha

1st time meet chin jie jie then can go her house le..

It was raining..

On the way go back my home..

I slept in the car..>

Reached home, 

Was tot to ask Hee Laogong stay longer cuz he drive so long..

But the time was late..

I scare ltr he reach home will be vry late..

So nvr ask him to stay..

Miss him~<3333

Caused by a word of so...

Is it cause both of us are too similar? 

That's why so easy to get angry..
Or cuz u are really understand me..

so u get angry..
My heart is pain when I know that U are angry me..

make me more pissed..
Mayb is my wrong..

I shud not thk that U wont angry..
Since I will angry cuz of u..

sure u will angry cuz of me too..

Miss you (4th April)

Word cannot describe my feeling..

My brain is full with u..

It keep refreshing u..

I cannot stop it..

It shows how much I love you..

more and more..

My brain dun let me to sleep..

Bcuz im missing u..

I finished all the comics I borrow..

but I still cannot sleep..

清明

清明时节，其实也是一个聚会。。

远方的亲戚都会回来祭拜祖先。。

去年的清明我不在家。。

没能见到他们。。

今年终于可以再见他们了。。

星期六早早就要清明了。。

我不能跟去 T.T

因为要上班。。