心真的很痛

眼泪流个不停。。

他竟然会叫她一起去。。

他给她的还不够？？

是不是只要她要的。。

他都会给。。

也对他们是什么关系。。

我和他又是什么关系。。

我一心帮他。。

他对我还不如她。。

算了。。

是我自以为是的以为。。

他对我是一样的重视。。

也许离开那个虚拟世界。。

对我比较好。。

我要的是心意。。

而不是甜言蜜语。。

2010最后一天

心里有一股气散不去。。
我很不服。。
我懂这是女人的虚荣心。。
虽然我与他只是虚拟的。。
我还是对他存有期待。。
我不需要甜言蜜语。。
我要的是一份心意。。
为什么每个男生都一样呢。。
口和心不一致。。
口里一直说那个女几坏。。
可是却把最好的都留给她。。
承诺的东西。。
都没做到。。
我把最好的留给他。。
而他却把这些给了他人。。
我该说他善良还是辜负我的心意呢？
又一个让我的心痛了起来。。
眼泪又留了下来。。
不管那个女的是他的谁。。
都伤了我。。
很像大声的和他对骂。。
可惜我懂在道理上。。
他是没错的。。
因为。。他不会懂的。。
虚拟里的情义。。
对他来说。。都是虚拟了。。
为什么要在乎呢。。
而我为什么会答应跟他做一对虚拟的情侣？
他都不能满足我女人的虚荣心。。
反而让我觉得自己很贱。。
都没人稀罕我做的。。
差劲的一年。。

差透了的感觉

我很气。。气得差点就跟他们翻脸。。
我是不清楚他们在忙些什么。。
可是却能忙到完全不理会我。。
同一句的话问了三次都没回复。。
被忽略的感觉又开始作怪了。。
以年龄来看，我的行为是幼稚的很。。
居然对小孩子发脾气。。
对一个小孩子期待太高？
以为他懂的比其他小孩多。。
看待他也渐渐的不分年龄。。
把他当成最好的朋友。。
很爱跟他闹。。跟他玩。。
不过在他心里。。
其实我没什么分量吧。。
我猜我真实的想法是什么。。
他们未必懂啊。。
我很讨厌被瞒着。。

HairStyle

每年的这时侯, 我们都会去祭拜拿督公..
妈妈都会煮/买黄姜饭,咖哩鸡,红龟糕来拜..
而拿督公庙也有提供我们表演..不太懂他们在演什么 -_-''
也有很多摊口卖食物和饰品..
其中让我有兴趣的是一个发饰的摊口..
有好多我没看过的发饰..都好可爱..
我买了两个..有一个是donut..^_^
好可爱..我看到那个摊口小姐绑donut很漂亮..
忍不住去买了一个..
可是好像不太适合噢..哈哈..
我的头发是去电直的..如果绑donut会不会弄坏头发呢~?
不过..还好..我有一个长头发的妹妹..
可以叫她绑给我看~~

2 Days can't on9

2 Days can't on9 due to an accident spoilt the TM line.
During these 2 days, I had experienced what is called life.
A simple life,
Stay with family~Laugh with family~Outting with family~
All these already bring me a huge of satisfaction.


Without internet,
Sure there is lesser entertainment in life.
But there is much more enjoyable things to replace.
Can on9 but dont addict~
That's what I had forgotten in my life.
We almost think the virtual world is our home.
Before this,
When I'm on9-ing and lag~
I will very angry~
But yesterday,
I had experienced laggy because mum was watching youtube.
I didn't angry for this.
I hope I will continues like this..
Slowly change my life to healthy ^_^

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闹情绪

控制不了自己的情绪。。
把假的当成真的了。。
心，变得越来越狭窄。。
清楚的明白这负面的情绪是来自哪里。。
却说不出口。。
因为我明白那是多么的不合理。。
闹情绪的我。。真的很丑。。
我好像玩不起这个游戏。。
我是不是应该停下来。。

人生？

看了不同人的部落格。。
我发现人的心其实很接近。。
我们所面对的问题。。
其实每个人都有经历过。。
只是我们会把不好的一面隐藏起来。。
用好的一面迎接每一天。。

人的心都不圆满。。
每天都在追求更好的。。
也许这就是人生？
不断的寻找更好。。
拥有->放手->寻找->追求->拥有
不断的重复。。

A friend

Knw the person in an unexpected day.
Went to there and meet him for few times already.
We didn't talk much before.
Until the day I were lost control again.
Always, after a period..
I will did something abnormal..haha
I act like a "wen ti bao bao"..
Keep asking him question and want him to answer me..
Talking to him make me feel happy..
After that, I will always find him chat..
And he not like other guys,
will run away from me..
Because I know my action is like abit "hua chi"
So far, I still can maintain the friendship well..
I hope there will not be anything that will affect our friendship.J

It's really a black Friday

I'm not happy in these few days,

My heart is shouting..

It's hurt by everything.

Every1 will just blame me for my emo,

and no1 will care about my emotion.

Every time I will get the concern from other peoples who I ever ignored them.

Peoples that I really care always hurt me the most.

I'm envy to a family that can fun together. 

while I can't see it in my family. 

They will always ask u to go ahead.

They are looking down on me. I know it.

Just because of I addicting the game and acting like a child.

I admit that I m addicting to the game, 

But I didn't lose myself.

I didn't missed anything as a human.

I will act like a child just don't want them to worry me.

Lending people a hand is it so hard?

Why always they need help will ask from me,

When I need they don't.

Or they just see my needs as nothing?

They are the person that most close to me.

Why I will feel hurt facing them?

I seldom drop my tear.

But they always successfully make it drop.

Cant count how many times they make it as the amount is too big.

Shout to me and ask me go ahead? This is what you were promised about sharing? 

Ask me to use my own lappy and say u want to use the comp?

How about your lappy? It's dead? Or been stolen? Your lappy not let people to touch it and you not use it. 

Its okay if you let me know that you want to use it mannerly but u are not. U shout like the comp is exclusive to u. And not 1 time, is every second that you are home. Some times I will hope you not at home. The peace of family is gone since the day u accident. I did my best to repair our bad relationship and all my hard work is spoilt by your attitude. Admitting your bad temper isn't help anything if you are not going to correct it.

New Friends

Get to know 2 new friends in maple again.
They had lighten my hope to friend again.
My heart was broken badly till I decided not to believe anyone more.
Smiling had disappeared from my face long time.
Social has gone since the day,
Darkness were like belongs to me forever.

After stay in the darkness for few months,
finally I get the way to come out from there,
My smiles are going back to my face soon.
However, I'm a bit worry about the same things will happen.
Changes of relationship make me scare.

Wishes for u-Grace

A celebration were planning while we were busy on our life.

Such a surprisingly we will celebrate for u? haha..

That isn't a fully plan actually. 

Our plan were more amazingly..

Lunch, shopping (choosing present), movie, and celebrate with a lot of friends.

Anyway, hope you were enjoy in the day.

Time: 11p.m sharp

Venue: Bukit Mertajam (BM) Jusco

Date: 10th Sept 2010

1st Station is at the top level of the building. I believe most of the people know why. Is to see what the movie on board and buy the movie ticket. The movie has been chosen by us was the "Resident evil: After life". It is an interesting movie. Awaiting for the next chapter. 

After bought the ticket, the next station is to fill in our stomach. We went to Johnny to have our lunch. The meal set is very worth to eat. RM 8.90 can have a dish, a drink, a soup and a cup of aiscream. The aiscream so yummyyyy..Missing it now. We were having photo section after lunch.

After lunch, we asked the lady (Restaurant's manager) to help us take photo.

Shopping shopping...Time to have some exercise after lunch. Shopping is the choice for us.  4 rich gals at below~! See how much did they bought. lol..Gals are like pretty..ops..talk like that seems I'm not like a gal..haha..

wow...so many bags...

After finish movie, we went to shop shop again. And go to take the fruit cake celebrate at McD. 

Such a big cake. Can't imagine we can finish the cake within 30mins with 5 of us. Haha..

Our cute little princess blowing the candle ♥

Cute little princess feeding 5 of us a strawberry. Oh~So sweet. haha

no more

We don't understand each others.

Just because of a sentence, I believe you will understand me.

I'm not request for a fully comprehension.

We gone through many things.

In a year of life, we were close..

However, I didn't see you satisfy with what you have now.

You always seek for something that I don't know.

Alright, we will not understood a person fully.

I can let you to seek for what you want.

In all the ways you doing, 

ever you care to the person that care you in behind?

Maybe you think you treat me good enough as a friend.

I really appreciate what you did to me.

When I was in fearful, you did give me a power to stand up.

I do know myself have a lot of weaknesses.

But I do know that I have tried my best to mend our friendship too.

Since the time, we are not close anymore,

I can see you are just to maintain our relationship

but won't tell me what is in your heart.

Maybe you are blaming me for not telling you my feeling.

I'm a sensitive person. A small action can let me guess for a long time.

No need to deny it. Just think back what was happen in these few months.

Or you want to check back the record.

You are not the person always take the initiative.

That's all I can say.

(Ha..See till here..a stranger will think the person was my partner maybe.People ever think i'm les but im not. Whatever you think me are with your ordinary's view was not me. I'm not an unique person but just look for a trustful relationship. Family, Friends, or Love.)

Well, whatever is not mine will not be mine.

I know not many people can achieve my demand on relationship.

I won't impose a relationship that is not really.

I will take the lesson. I won't demand more. 

I won't sad for a person that are not understand me anymore.

I will not care to you anymore too.

I know you can find a lot of people to care you. 

All the best to you in future.

(Want delete all the contacts between us, u may do it. 

Not the first time I been treated like that.)

曾经，现在

曾经的快乐
现在的伤心
曾经的信赖
现在的怀疑
曾经的交心
现在的陌生
曾经的以为
现在的证实
曾经的梦想
现在的破灭

然而现在会是以后的曾经。。
人生不停的在走。。
犹如地球不停的在转。。
到头来。。
还是回到原点。。

The End?

Since when your reply is so short..
I was keep myself to ignore the emotion..
this is really hard to do so.
Because it has shown at our relationship..
I don't know since when we are less contact..
when contact...
there seems an obstacle between us..
not to let us go in each other's heart.

Every night I listen the song that you like..
It make me want to cry..
I were never has the feeling like this..
to somebody like you..
We are not a couple..
But the feeling to you was like you are my dear..
I was scare of my feeling because I know we were over close..
But I believe that you are worth for me to treat you like this..

There is a song to express my feeling..
"yi ge xiang xia tian, yi ge xiang chiu tian"
Because of the song,
I can stand strong to our relationship..
because I think we are same like the song..
yet I'm so disappointed now..

I don't know what the next step should I have..
I can go out with friends..whom never walk thru my heart..
I can chat, can smile, can plan outing with them..
But I never get satisfication from them..
I looking for the relationship that we were..
But I know I can't find it until the day...
I would like to ask the god..
The fate of us go to the end?
Can you give me an answer so I can move on to my next life..

Merdeka

31st Aug..Merdeka for Malaysia..

It was a significant day for Malaysian.

I can't remember since when..

31st Aug just a holiday for me..

It's a day let me escape from work/study.

In day of 24hrs..

Maybe there is a moment 

Just a moment..

I will still remember the meaning of day..

Other time I'm thinking what should I do in a day..

Mostly are enjoying my holiday with drama, song or internet.

Same for this year..I'm going to have a meet with friends..

We wanna have a shopping..

It might not be a full day shop..

But can let me pass my time without lonely..

Alright, hope there is a happy meet..xD 

New Template

I have use 3 hours to edit my blog's template.

The feeling of satisfaction is with me 

because I had found something new to my blog.

"translator", "calender", and "pao ma deng" which is at the top.

has been added.

Also some of the songs that I think are nice: 

Love by Hebe
寂寞寂寞就好 by Hebe

你为什么说谎 by Della

So far, I'm still finding: Nice Song and Nice Calender

Rope :D

Ytd night was felt in the dark hole again.
Don't wanna say what is the hole.
I feel lucky that I always can find a rope to let me climb up.
But I scare one day I can't find rope.
At that time, is it I gonna have a new born?
It's over..I should move my target.
Not to focus one target but many.
Good luck for me.

Special thanks to the "rope". XD

Wonder

爱情有这么重要吗?
没有爱情会死吗？
我不明白。。
人常常因为寂寞而寻找对象。。
然而没有对象就会寂寞而死？
爱情应该是一种令人心悸的感觉。。
而不是寂寞的工具。。
我开始有一种感觉。。
人生是在寻找平衡。。
亲情，友情， 爱情。。
三种情的平衡。。
太过甜蜜的爱情。。
往往忽列了友情。。
可太多人要爱情。。

Dairy

Early morning received Qing's morning call by sms..
I was still sleeping until late reply..
I guess she already sleep at that time that's y no reply me..
Meanwhile, she was late sleep again F5555

Reach office, my colleague ask me how was my consideration for going haiyat.
I have decided to go..So...
26-28th Nov I wont be at My oh~xP
27th is my b'day..So it might call b'day present for myself? haha

-To do list-
1. Finish all the prompt payment.
2. After work go to walk for 15mins.
3. Dl nokia theme for lee sin.

Singer

Recently like Hebe so much..
Surprisingly my friend has the same feeling with me..
She was thought to buy her album..
I think I won't so crazy but I will ask my bro to help me burn it out..hehe..
That is very long I didn't get addict to superstar.
The current 2 singers that I like are Della and Hebe
I hope I can find out all their song.

I love you, you love she

Like the song from Hebe,
i love you, you love she, she love he, he love she..
Seems the world always like that..
The person that you love might not love you,
The person that love you might not love by you..

What is love?

The feeling was so fresh when I saw my cousins' blog,
Since when they are grow and understand the love?
It might cuz my environment affected me..
My home never have the topic about love..
All my family members care about family more than love..
Even our ages are bigger than my cousins..
But I think they even understand the love more than us.
However, I not agree with their relationship.
They are too young to love people.
They were met ppl that will never put true heart on the relationship.
See they injure in the relationship,
I have the thinking to not love any1.

31st July - 1st August

Gathering with Qing and Dear2..Plus Chou Wan Lik!

I reached KL by 2.30pm and waiting for Qing to fetch me.
After that we went to Midvalley exhibition.
Because Dear2 want to find people there.
While waiting we walk around to see the exhibition.
The super mop and knife took our attention for a time.
We went to baskin robbins stall..
So many ppl queue-ing there..bcz have discount.
We bought 2 cups aiscream..with 4 flavor..
Eat dao wan vomit le..Too sweet le..
After that went to Full house to have dinner..
Crazy la..after aiscream then dinner..soooooooo full..
But this not the end yet..
After that went to 4 seasons..winter place..
Cold!!!! Lucky I did bring jacket haha..
Chou wan lik no bring..wan rampas my jacket..I dun let haha..
Qing oso sot de..Wear short pant ><'' Brave..

-To be continue- Headache now..

Lonely Day w/o Qing F3 (JK)

After 2 days of rest,
My eyes are more tired *.*
Morning woke up feel so sleep..
was thought to take MC leave..
but think of the meeting wif boss..
aiks...cannot take leave..
wanna faster settle it..
Stay in office..eye keep wan to close..
Dunno can tahan till finish my work or not..

Watching ppl's life..
My heart and my brain asking me to have some changes to my life..
But to have a new life..
there are many things to sacrifice..
I haven't ready to make it yet..
Mayb I shud start with quitting on9 game? lolx..

Morning Call

How great was the morning call :D
I were hav a sweet call with Q..
She was waiting flight in Airport..
She goin to have a great trip in SG..
Qing, I waiting ur doggie!~xD
Counting the gift to buy..
She purposely skip mine T.T
Bad Qing! =X
But I knw she wont forgot my gift de hehe..
3 more weeks to meet up..
Plan to oi oi together in Dear's house..
Qing dun put me aeroplane hor..
1st time go dear's house..Excited! Keke..

Unhappy day

Tired..Stress..
What happen to tis world..
Is my prob or others problem?
Why cant be peace..
I wish to escape from everything now..
Can I stay alone？
I wish to stay alone to gain the peace..
Hate emo..hate chaos..
I only hope every1 around me are happy..
why cant as my wish?
I want to give up..
If really not happy stay beside me..
then let's go bah..
why want so suffer?

A thread from Asiasoftsea Forums

Randomly read a thread which as below,

http://forums.asiasoftsea.net/showthread.php?t=803760

I have try to think from their situation,

I think the TS was having a desire to excel over others,

He/She will like war more than peace.

I cant communicate with this kind of people,

He/She will always attack your weaknesses.

However, he/she is teaching you a words of reality. 

In real life, there are many people like TS.

It might a great practice for T-Rex to survive in reality.

He has done a best job as a moderator,

but he has lack of experience on facing this kind of people too.

This might caused by the TS insulted him

He lost control and brought in his own feeling.

Again, I understand the reality.

After read the whole thread,

I think the Tyrae is admirable on solving problem.

He able to understand the TS problem,

and provide a satisfy answer.

2nd day of June

Today was a satisfy day,
I have done part of my work,
I have leveled HeeDidi to 108,
I have touch a little bit of my book,
I have waited a novel from my favorite author.
But meanwhile, it was a tired day as well.
I have used my lunch time on work,
I have used my time for game,
I have used my eyes on searching the book and net.
Well, it is time to bed.
Good night~♥

24th May

My heart is pain when I make the decision,

But I think it is the only way for us..

Back to the origin is better for us..

It's not your problem but mine.

I'm not ready to accept everything..

I had made a wrong choice,

but I never regret..

Thanks you for everything u gave me.

I'm appreciate..

First Try

Coppied from Forums that I posted:

 http://forums.asiasoftsea.net/showthread.php?p=12041877#post12041877

Dedicate to Dad,

Family is everything for you,
Act like a superman,
Take the responsibility as your life,
Heart is saying " I love you "
Every second..
Right from the very start.

The 1st 3 rows are describe my father, and the next 3 rows are the voice from my heart.

Ign: x3NiniCessDK
World: Fornax / Germini

19th May

Yeah finally settle my LI stuffs.

I used 1 week more to finish my report.

My poor language make me think it not an easy job.

!st time write it by my own,

I'm satisfy when I finish the part.

Don care what result will I get at last,

I'm satisfy right now.

When I reached office,

I check my logbook again.

/swt..I miss fill 2 pages..

w..t...h...

Faster take pen and write it.

At last can finish before my supervisor reach.

Give the logbook to my supervisor for sign.

I told him I need it b4 lunch time.

Bt when lunch time I go take from him,

he still reading..><''

and ask me to amend some pages oni sign for me.

Arghhhhhh...mummy already at outside waiting me..

I want to post all the stuffs by today ler!

I have no choice, my supervisor went to lunch after ask me correct it.

So I asked mummy to help me post other stuffs 1st..

I felt myself was lucky,

because after that mummy phone me and said

the express service will off at 6pm.

So I still have time to post later.

After settle all my LI stuffs,

My burden is gone..

I'm ready to train my ARAN!

Train with Hee few hours,

he was still headache..

Dotz!Dotz!

He want tio scold la..

headache le still playing..

Therefore, I decided to stop early.

for him to rest and me do my house work.

But he very bu ting hua la..

Still want delay till 11pm =.=''

Anyway, just let him..

In between 11pm and 12am,

I have received 2 calls.

1 from Hee and another from Qing..

I think Hee really feel not well..

He call me twice in a day ah..

But I dun want talk more to him,

I want he rest la! eeeee....

After that Qing called me,

We chat about half an hour until 12am..

Then together sms Dear to wish her happy b'day ^^

Happy 25th my dear~

Cant wait to meet all of u on friday..

Hee, Qing, Dear, Terence!

Hope the PG trip will have fun ^^

泪流的一天

对你的憎恶越来越强烈，

强烈到我有想离开这个家的想法。

好想好想有属于自己的空间。

努力的尝试要忽略你，

你却一而再的惹怒我。

好好的一个母亲节，

却给了妈妈一个不愉快的回忆。

我懂她很伤心，

因为我不理睬她。

可是我没办法。。

我没办法在那个人面前说话，

只要面对他。。

我就很气很气。。

甚至哭了。。

早上出门回到家，

就不开心到现在。

努力的平静自己的心情，

却被他打乱了。

很不明白。。

为什么他都不会为人想？

究竟是我太感性？

还是他太冷血？

很想对妈妈说出我的想法，

我知道她对我有很多误解，

因为我都不跟她说我的烦恼。

她误以为我对她很不满，

其实我不满的是那个人。。

不是她。。

我的烦恼不能跟她说。。

手心是肉，手背也是肉。。

说了只是把我的烦恼推给她。。

我做不到。。

只好让那个误解继续。。

让眼泪继续的流。。

My Q

Today is a sadness day for my Q,

She had make some difficult decision.

Or can say she has no choice for it..

These few days, her facebook will full wif sadness.

I hope there will have people help me take care of her.

Sometimes, I''m busy wif my work till no time to talk wif her.

Hope the PG trip will make her happy a bit.

Q, dun sad le oh..sayang~

For 5/5

2morrow is hee's birthday lo xD

Happy B'day to Hee Laogong..

Sorry oh..I cannot accompany you T.T

Wish you have a great day nor..

20 years old le..Dun be so lazy le hor..hehe..

Love you so much  ♥♥

~Be Happy Always~

2nd May

It was a great day I ever think,

It's sweet to be with u,

I really appreciate whatever you give me,

With the name of accompany you,

I think it's you accompany me more.

I feel confortable with you.

I dunno you have the same feeling?

I nvr feel boring to see you play football,

Because I like to see you.

It really a great day I ever think,

but why till the end,

it is come out with heart pain?

Tear was out,

I think it will nvr happen anymore.

Tear drop again

Again and again,

I really dunno how to survive in this place..

Whatever I do are wrong..

I wish to escape from this place..from the person..

I tried to calm down myself,

but it is failed at the end..

Again I asked myself,

why would I born in this world?

to taste all the suffer?

Anyway, I know what I thought now will been forgot by me soon

just by now, I'm suffer for the thought..

Moody (End of April)

Moody Day again,

Why? Why will I fall into the dark hole..

I blame every1 even though I know they are not doing anything wrong..

They are just acting like usual..

It's not like me..I'm scare to myself..

Or maybe this just is me?

I hope it is not..

I cannot accept any comment by now..

It will make me breakdown..

Just a normal react, I can think as no respectful..

What the hell I'm thinking?

I really scare..I have the feeling of breakdown soon..

I need people to talk to..

but I cannot accept people comment..

I dun want people treat me gingerly..

but I will think they not care me if just react like normal..

Tear is drop again..for my fault..

What can I do now..

What i want actually?

I making every1 around me unhappy..

God..I wish to sleep forever..

So I wont get hurt and hurt any1..

Well, I believe I can stand up soon..

Just give me time..

I think I'm not so bad, right?

At least, I do know my fault..

I know I'm a slow pork..

so give me time to settle my stuffs..

I'm a fast learner..

but I'm not a good executor as I do not have a good memory

Cheer it up ^^ 

New Template

Changed blog template,

The template let me think of "wow, so pink"

Anyway, it look cute and full with love.

I dunno whether my character is suit with the feeling or not,

but hope to give reader a feeling of happy.

While, my youngest mei comment to me..

it look like Indian style  >< wt...

but i dun bother her haha..still keep it..

Hope to see more beautiful template.

Instability of emotion

Instability of emotion again.

Lose my temper cuz of a trifle.

Was tot to find some1 to talk however I dunno find who.

Find Hee? how to tell as I knw he is in a happy mood?

Find Qing? she driving..dun wan disturb her..

Find Dear? she goin to have date wif qing..
dun thk she has time to listen me..

Tear was out..cuz i know myself was wrong..

but i have no way to abreact..

Nite of tear

My heart is pain.

Go inside wan to see you

but I'm regret to go inside.

If I know it early, I'll not go in..

I wish to throw all the things away..

The way U want to protect me is disobey my wish

My way to treat fren is blif and frenly..

When I follow u, I feel myself is so selfish..

Selfishness ppl is most hate by me..

but now it turns to me..

I dunno how to do..

I dunno who m I if the trust is gone..

I know u'r not happy too..

but I really cannot agree what u do..

I know not every1 can be trust

but I want to trust them 

Cuz of so little thing and lost a fren..

I cannot do it..

朋友的部落格

看了朋友的部落格

明白了他的想法却给不了意见

因为我也是深陷其中的一员

网上游戏很容易上瘾

因为我们是跟人玩游戏

而不是跟电脑玩

不管怎样我衷心的

希望他能做一个不让自己后悔的决定

加油!加油!

27th MC day

Ytd was not go to work bcz mirgraine

Wake at 11am but didn't receive any msg >_<

Anyway, I still sms him 1st..as I promised b4..

Whoever woke at 1st will sms another 1..

So far, he replied me vry fast..

give me the feeling that he still care about me..

so I nvr ask him about my doubt..

Qing feel not well too

Worry about her bcuz she already not well for 5 days.

She was went to see doc for twice

bcuz the 1st doc do not want to give her MC.

Sucker Doc lols..

But I still worry about her bcuz she still haven recover.

I was received a concern sms from a fren.Thanks you.

Always at the right time send me a regard. haha.

Abit sorry to Hee Laogong bcuz make him worry so much..

Mayb cuz he 1st time know I low blood pressure.

Easily get dizzy and mirgraine.

He make me feel warm altot cannot meet him.

<3 Hee Laogong

Gurney with Hee Laogong and Chin Jie Jie

(Taken by Chin Jie Jie)
Today is a great outting with Hee Laogong and Chin Jie Jie.

We watched "Ice Kacang Puppy Love" on the spot we reached Gurney.

Nice timing LOL..

Hee Laogong was crazy and suggested to watch 3 movies F3

Sot sot le him..

After watched movie, we went to find eat..

Too many choices till we dunno want to eat what..

And finally we chose a restaurant..

Forgot to see what the restaurant name ><''

Ordered a bbq half chicken, mushroom saurce speggeti and sandwich..

The sandwich actually not our choices..

Is the waiter suggested~~ 

Anyway, it is a very full meal..

Chin jie jie so like to eat vegetable oh..haha..healthy~

The drinks also bring a moment of hapiness to us too..

Hee Laogong 1 is sweet, then mine is sour, chin jie jie de is bitter..

If drink it according..

After the meal, the time is point to 4pm..

We went around the building and they help me chose hair pin..

So beautiful..it's butterfly :D

5pm, we on our way back le..

Hee Laogong fetch us back..We sit ferry? or Car sit ferry?haha

1st time meet chin jie jie then can go her house le..

It was raining..

On the way go back my home..

I slept in the car..>

Reached home, 

Was tot to ask Hee Laogong stay longer cuz he drive so long..

But the time was late..

I scare ltr he reach home will be vry late..

So nvr ask him to stay..

Miss him~<3333

Caused by a word of so...

Is it cause both of us are too similar? 

That's why so easy to get angry..
Or cuz u are really understand me..

so u get angry..
My heart is pain when I know that U are angry me..

make me more pissed..
Mayb is my wrong..

I shud not thk that U wont angry..
Since I will angry cuz of u..

sure u will angry cuz of me too..

Miss you (4th April)

Word cannot describe my feeling..

My brain is full with u..

It keep refreshing u..

I cannot stop it..

It shows how much I love you..

more and more..

My brain dun let me to sleep..

Bcuz im missing u..

I finished all the comics I borrow..

but I still cannot sleep..

清明

清明时节，其实也是一个聚会。。

远方的亲戚都会回来祭拜祖先。。

去年的清明我不在家。。

没能见到他们。。

今年终于可以再见他们了。。

星期六早早就要清明了。。

我不能跟去 T.T

因为要上班。。

24th Day

I dunno how to face u..

I know I'm loving u..

but I cannot chase up ur step..

Everything is like too fast..

I know I disappointed u sometimes..

Just hope that u can wait for me..

I want u to be happy but im failed to do that?

I made u cry..and my heart is pain..

Farewell

Venue: Gurney

Time: Reached there by 3pm and leave by 9pm

Activities: Lunch, Shopping and Watched <越光宝盒>  Laugh non-stop

Venue: 监狱酒吧?

Time: Reached there by 9pm and leave by 11pm

Activities: Dinner and 38 

My handphone was no battery in the middle..

Sry for those who are worrying me at that time..

Especially Hee laogong..sry eh..

guess

I hate guessing..

but I cant stop guessing..

I'm suffer of my guess..

I wish my guess isn't really come true..

I wish U could give me a right ans..

Even it is hurt..

At least I no need to guess..

Pain

I'm sad to see U so suffer..

When oni U can escape from that pain?

My heart is pain when see U pain..

My mood is down when see U cry..

I hope to see both of U happy..

I wish to escape from the pain but I cant..

I couldn't leave U all..

I hope I'm strong enough to protect U all..

Dearest

I didn't know whether I'm help U or not..

Either is the way of listen or giving suggestion..

MayB I'm not a good listener..

Anyway, I hope U are in the best way..

As U said, U cannot wait cuz U dun wish it happen..

But you couldn't control urself..

Since that, U have to face it wif all ur brave..

Either want to put down all the things

or decide to go wif him..

U say U wont wait cuz it will hurt another..

If so, then U have to put down all lo..

If not it is hurting too..

It's hurt to be the last 1 know it..

I dun blif any gal hope that they will be the last 1 to know it..

Altot know the truth is hurt..

But it's better than U let some1 lie..

Guessing is suffer...it make ppl crazy..

If the guy's heart got somebody..

both of U wont be happy..

I would let go if he do so to me..

Since I loving him, 

I would like to see he happy..

If forced to be together..

We wont happy..

Miss you

Miss you miss you miss you..

Why my brain always thk of you..

Can it stop for a moment?

I tot after meet there will less abit..

but it raise sia..

I more miss you now..

Aaaaaaaa........

14th March Date

We know each other for just a month

Everything seems go very fast..

I never regret to be together with u

U always give me the best feeling

Although it's fast but I'm still happy..

I really happy today..

I know u dun like the venue but u still willing to go there with me..:D

And also the words U told me b4 I go back~

Haha..thanks for willing to try it yea..<333

I like it xD

12th March (7th day)

I'm expecting something that myself also dunno what is it..
I'm scare the feeling..I keep want more..
Am I greedy? I hope..God give me time..
Dun take away all my things before I can clear out my feeling..

选择

不清楚是对的选择吗。。

可是我愿意去尝试。。

不管将来是什么结果。。

我想我都不会后悔。。

只是我的心会痛。。

现在的我。。

虽然心会难过，

难过在我接受他的同时，

却也伤害了其他。。

对不起。。

可是我更在乎他。。

我会努力的开心。。

才不会让你们担心。。

跟他在一起，

我是快乐的。。

乱

越过了那条线

明明什么都不是

却有了过分的占有欲

傻瓜。。也许我真的是。。

关系搞到很乱了。。

也许需要时间来整理。。

歌

1. 幸福的味道

2. 我爱他-叮当

3. 带我飞-林志玲

4. 一个人的生活-林凡

5. solo

友情

男生和女生的友情会变质?

虽然曾经有过小小的心动..

那都是你对我太好的关系..

我不期待友情变质成爱情..

我很珍惜每个对我好的人..

我会想回报对我好的人..

然而这往往会使到你们对我有了幻想?

当这发生时,

我已经不知道要怎样去面对你们了..

话题开始慢慢的变少..

关系也慢慢的疏远..

我不想要爱情..爱情没有永远..

唯有友情..然而男女之间的友情有永远吗?

初八

好奇怪..虽然生病时很爱撒娇..

可是像今天这样情绪不稳定还是很少有..

起起落落的情绪..

是不是当依赖一个人时就会变弱呢?

总觉得让人讨厌了?

好想哭..可是却不懂为什么要哭呢?

强忍着不哭却变得神经质..

好矛盾..

虽然懂得是不应该的..

却希望他做到?

很过分的我..我不想变成这样..

我要 dear dear 和 qing qing 帮我..

可是又不想放下?

我到底怎么了?

好想假期快点到..

我要跟dear  和 qing 见面..

2010 年初一

令人难以决定的一天

碰巧年初一又是情人节

很多甜蜜的情侣度过了难忘的一天

却也是失恋的朋友难熬的一天

最近常有朋友跟我分享他们的故事

大多数是伤心的

听了他们的故事

让我很怀疑..爱情究竟是什么

为什么会那么痛苦

然而..我也会想..

他们是幸福的..

至少他们曾经感受过爱情

我常觉得我是一个没有感情的人

我感受不到他们所感受的爱情

爱情..究竟是什么..

朋友常跟我说..

当你爱上一个人时..就懂..

我很想说..我又怎么知道那就是爱情呢?

不管怎样, 还是祝福所有情侣能有一个美好的结果..

也希望那些单恋的朋友能成功..

失恋不是世界末日..

家人, 朋友 都在你身边..

加油吧!

今天的行程:

去了槟城刚发展的一个城市AutoCity

很多朋友问是不是约会

我回答是的..跟我家人约会 嘻嘻

对现在的我来说

家人是唯一能影响我的人..

爱情不在考虑中..

也许这样说很悲观..

不过我还不清楚爱情是什么..

所以我不想伤害喜欢我的人..

突发事件:

AutoCity有一个烟花展

妹妹被吓哭了..

我也有点吓到..

因为太靠近了..

那烟花好像会打到我们似的..

然而还是一个很开心的外游..

好久没有这么平静的外游了..

好开心..

情绪

我变弱了

情绪不受我控制。。

常常会觉得不受关心。。不受尊重。。

发了脾气后觉得很后悔。。

渴望平静。。却闹得大家不快乐。。

Em0

Ytd was end with em0..

Too many want to say..

And I'm so regret now..

Why I cannot control myself?

Too bad..

Break

Day by day..

I'm not sure whether Qing is getting well or not..

Sometimes she was showing her best look..

Sometimes she was crying so pathetic..

Is it most of the guys are same?

How could they do that to gals..

We gals are really hurt when we know we get cheat..

A word beak mean settle all?

After break..

how to get well with a broken heart?

I'm not sure the 3rd party gt wrong or not..

but I'm sure the guy that 1 leg take 2 ships 

will not get bless from god..

Holiday!?

This coming sat should be a public holiday for Thaipusan.

So sad I would not have the holiday..

My supervisor told me..

Our company didn't celebrate this..T.T

Therefore, the coming sat I have to work oso sob

1st movement

My 1st movement is success at ytd..

Ytd I call dear dear and chat wif her vry long..

From that I know that she is actually vry vry miss her mummy..

And I feel so xin deng about her growing life..

I thk she is really a good gal i had met..

I dun understand why her ex bf's family cannot accept her..

Her life is really tough as wad we can see from TV shows,

I just wish she will get a happy ending..

She is worth for every1 to love her..

The more u understand her the more u will love her..

I wish to be her but I knw I would not be her..

Not every1 can as strong as her..

But also cuz of her strong, my heart so pain..

I wish to be a guy that can protect her..

even she thk she no nid ppl to protect her..

She make me understand what is so important in the life..

I love you my dear..

From the deep of my heart..

(Friendship love-We both are gals)

Break the Freeze- Sat

Today finally my dear2 sms me, very happy to receive her msg. 

After a long period of freeze finally we are getting well.

Although there is still no good as last time,

but i blif we will slowly become good.