It's really a black Friday

I'm not happy in these few days,

My heart is shouting..

It's hurt by everything.

Every1 will just blame me for my emo,

and no1 will care about my emotion.

Every time I will get the concern from other peoples who I ever ignored them.

Peoples that I really care always hurt me the most.

I'm envy to a family that can fun together. 

while I can't see it in my family. 

They will always ask u to go ahead.

They are looking down on me. I know it.

Just because of I addicting the game and acting like a child.

I admit that I m addicting to the game, 

But I didn't lose myself.

I didn't missed anything as a human.

I will act like a child just don't want them to worry me.

Lending people a hand is it so hard?

Why always they need help will ask from me,

When I need they don't.

Or they just see my needs as nothing?

They are the person that most close to me.

Why I will feel hurt facing them?

I seldom drop my tear.

But they always successfully make it drop.

Cant count how many times they make it as the amount is too big.

Shout to me and ask me go ahead? This is what you were promised about sharing? 

Ask me to use my own lappy and say u want to use the comp?

How about your lappy? It's dead? Or been stolen? Your lappy not let people to touch it and you not use it. 

Its okay if you let me know that you want to use it mannerly but u are not. U shout like the comp is exclusive to u. And not 1 time, is every second that you are home. Some times I will hope you not at home. The peace of family is gone since the day u accident. I did my best to repair our bad relationship and all my hard work is spoilt by your attitude. Admitting your bad temper isn't help anything if you are not going to correct it.